About 10 days ago we experienced the worst day of our lives. What started out as a good day, my sweet husband had the day off to go with the youth in our ward to the lake, and I only had 1.5 days until the weekend. As I was getting ready for work, we received an email from the birth father, we had learned exactly a week previous that he was the father. At one point in the process the father said he might be open to allowing the adoption to go through, even if we found out that he was the father. So our lawyer told him that we wanted to talk to him before he made his official decision.
So back that day. We received an email and decided on a time to talk. We decided on 12:15, pretty much right after my sweet husband would get to the lake with the youth and during my lunch hour. From the first sentence I knew what his decision was, he had decided to parent. As much as it hurt us, we know it is his right. We hope that he takes care of her and teaches her about how truly special she is.
Our hearts were crushed, I ended up leaving work about 10 minutes after I got back from my lunch. My sweet husband was stuck at the lake because he had driven some of the youth down and they needed a ride back. I spent the day with my good friend, she and her three kids helped take my mind off of my hurt. My sweet husband returned home around 5:30 and we went out to dinner and spent the rest of the day watching Suits, it was pretty much all we could do.
It has been an interesting past ten days, some days are really hard, but I'm finding now that more and more are filled with peace. Heavenly Father is truly in control. He knows what is best for us, He has a plan for all of us, including the sweet girl that we wanted to be ours. Heavenly Father will watch over her and protect her.
My sister on a mission, sent us a sweet card this week. In it she encouraged us to read this talk. It has really helped me, another talk by Elder Cook has also helped me, read it here. The kind words from friends and family, hugs, and prayers have also helped us through this time. But I thing that has helped us the most is the knowledge that our Savior knows how we feel and Heavenly Father has a plan for us, and He has a plan for our family. So folks, as you may have noticed, I put our button back up and our page with our adoption info. It's time to continue to spread the word. Thank you so much for your help and your prayers for us!
Oh, Addie. My heart is broken for you. I am so, so sorry to hear this news. I can't imagine the feelings of disappointment and sadness you have felt these past 10 days, but what a shining example you are of faith and hope in our Savior. He truly is our only solace in times like these. I hope the birth father takes his role seriously and showers that sweet baby with all the unconditional love she deserves. I know your time will come, and I have continued to pray for you and put your names in the temple each time I go. Sending you big hugs!
ReplyDeleteAddie, I don't even have words. I am just so sad for you guys and wish I could take away the hurt you feel. We love you and will continue to pray for you guys and spread the word for you. Hang in there!
ReplyDeleteUgh, I cried when I read your post. I'm so very sorry. I hope this all makes sense in the grand scheme of things eventually. You've had a roller coaster of a summer, haven't you? Hang in there. We'll continue spreading the word that you are looking to adopt and praying for you.
ReplyDeleteYou all are SO SO SO sweet! Thank you so much for your support, kind words, and friendship!
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